Monday, February 28, 2011

Celebrate Everyday

Just as a disclosure for this post, it is LOADED with pictures!

I have been moderately stressed recently.. well who am I kidding? I have been severely stressed. Between the Kaplan test, statistics class and tests, applying for nursing school, switching from night shift to day shift (hopefully soon), cross-training as the back-up Health Unit Coordinator at the hospital, dealing with the whole "Noah/Creed/Andrew" situation, training for the marathon, teaching dance, money, phone junk, and maintaining social interactions with anybody of the human race has been quite the balancing act. Fortunately, I was able to go to Disneyland this week and remember there is more to life than being stressed all the time.

Last week kick-started this way of thinking. My parents came down in the middle of the week so we could see the Parade of Homes before venturing off to Disneyland. I always love when my parents come to St. George! We always make a huge breakfast, play games, and it is solely comforting to have my parents at my house.
Anyway, one morning my dad woke me up and said it had rained all night and to be careful when I go out running and training. I was feeling pretty skeptical and texted my running buddy, Kenneth, at 5:45 to see if he still wanted to run. Of course Kenneth did. He is a crazy-running fool! :) Kenneth came over a little after six and we started our run. Ironically enough, his first step was into a huge puddle of water. All I heard was "AH! Foot soaked!" and I couldn't help but to secretly laugh. As the run progressed I realized I was smiling while I was running. I had been smiling without even knowing I was smiling. I don't know if it was the endorphins or the music or the rain or whatever... but I was smiling. The rain made the run very fun! I was dripping rain off my forehead and into my eyes but it was still very fun! I wish everyday would rain for my training. :) Oh! This was also the day I finished 5 miles without stopping for the first time. :)
Kenneth and I also made a very spontaneous and secret trip to Mesquite. Maverick has these shake-type things called F'reals and they are heavenly! I love them! Anyway one night Kenneth, Tiera, Dee, and I were in the living room. Tiera and Dee were leaving to get food and Kenneth wanted ice cream. I was getting ready to go to bed because we have early morning runs and I thought everybody was leaving. Well somehow Kenneth talked me in to going to Mesquite to get F'reals at Maverick and then coming back. Yes, I know St. George has a Maverick... but where is the fun in that?
Kaitlin and Trent had their baby. He was 6 lbs. 15 ounces. His name is Kayden and he was born at 7:14 a.m.
I always feel refreshed after a trip to Disneyland. That is my release and helps me make it through the more difficult situations. I am so grateful I was able to make a trip down with my mom and my brothers Jared and Brian. A word to describe the trip (besides amazing, fantastic, wonderful, magical and those words) would be WET! Boy did we ever get rained on! It was so cold so my mother and I wore sweats (surprise surprise) and Jared and Brian had on three layers of shirts and coats. Apparently I just HAD to have some hot chocolate every time Jared got a latte'. It helped to keep us warm!

This trip happened to be two weeks before my Kaplan test so I spent my extra time in line flipping through the pages of my study book. I received comments such as "There is a dedicated student!" and "You brought a book to study? In Disneyland?!?" but it was necessary.

I have planned a trip for my birthday so while we were there we scoped out hotels and made plans for what we (my mother and I) want to do on my 21st birthday. It makes me more and more excited! I also got some more pins!! I now have 20 pins! I also bought my nephew and niece, Jackson and Joy, two pins each and a lanyard to begin their pin trading collection! We had a lot of new things happen on this trip. Brian saw World of Color for the first time. I just love that show. :) Brian also went to ElecTRONica for the first time. I went on the steamboat for my first time! We met Oscar Martinez- the longest working cast member. He has been there since December 1956. I had read about him recently on the Disneyland blog so I loved meeting him! We tried new restaurants like the French Market and the ESPN place in Downtown Disney. While we were at the French Market we saw a cast member we knew! During our November trip Jared and I spent a lot of time talking with a cast member while waiting for some churros. We quizzed her on her Disney trivia and in return she gave us FOUR FREE churros for keeping her entertained. Come to find out this same cast member also works at the French Market! We were able to say hello AND she gave me a discount on my salmon. :) My mom and I actually recognized A LOT of of cast members... been to Disneyland much?

It was so fun to be in Disneyland. To feel the jealousy of the cast members and keep dreaming about working there. It was lovely to be with some of my family members. It was a nice and simple way to remember to celebrate everyday.




Aladdin show. :)
Lunch/Dinner at the French Market. :)
Seriously got drenched! This picture will never do justice.
No lines? Not possible!?
It was raining so much!


I love this picture because my mom and Brian are laughing SO hard!
On the steamboat :)
During Thundermountain :)
That's my picture!
HECK YES!!! I'm number one and Brian got 5!!!


Studying. :)

Blue Ribbon Bakery: Jared's favorite place for a latte'
This picture is harder to take than you think. We're barely hanging on!






Oscar Martinez!

BAHAHAHA!
"A person should set his goals as early as he can and devote all his energy and talent to getting there. With enough effort, he may achieve it. Or he may find something that is even more rewarding. But in the end, no matter what the outcome, he will know he has been alive."
~ Walt Disney

Sunday, February 13, 2011

Enough is enough

Everybody makes mistakes. For me, the hardest part is recognizing what I need to learn from them. I can pick apart and see the negative sides for as many hours possible in a day... but is that even beneficial? Hardly.

I recently had a conversation with my parents where I told them how I came to the realization that I am an enabler. I thought I had good characteristics of being a good listener, of being a good friend... but I think I went to the extreme. I allow people to push their opinions on me so they can vent. I do things that I don't necessarily want to do as long as it makes somebody else happy. I like to see people happy. I don't like negative situations. I do anything and everything possible to ensure the people around me are comfortable. I usually put myself at the bottom of the chain in terms of who needs what and how crucial it is. But at what cost?

Enough is enough. I will not put myself in sour situations. I know what these situations are and I can't allow them to happen. Example, Creed. I still get texts from him. Almost like he is purposely trying to mess with my mind. I don't know if he honestly wants to be friends or if he is trying to parade his life in a way to make me jealous. It doesn't matter to me either way. The time of my life when Creed was a part of it is over. Being straightforward- The time with Creed was one of the most difficult, negative, awful, times of my life. If it were not for the strength of my family and the constant love and support from them, I do not know if I would have ever been able to talk about what happened and open up about the ill-treatment and essentially free myself from that dreadful circumstance. I go along with the texts to be a good friend. I let him ask me medical questions when Brittany (his girlfriend/fiance') was going through health problems. I don't know why I placate Creed. It isn't going to happen anymore.

There are a few people I get texts from and I try to be nice. I don't know why. However, today I realized how cutting that really is. I hurt a good friend. One of my best friends while I have been in St. George. The worst part... I don't know how to repair it... if that is even possible. Trying to make the less-important people in my life comfortable and happy really damaged the most important friendship for me right now.

I guess I should have known it would bite me eventually. The thought of everything makes me sick. I am upset with myself for enabling Creed and the other people. I'm upset I haven't openly expressed my views and made my values known. I'm upset about breaking a friendship with a man who shows me that gentlemen do exist. Well.... It is time to make some changes. I wont allow myself to be walked over. I can't jeopardize what is important to me. I wont major in the minors.

I know this post isn't exactly happy. It isn't the attitude I try to possess. It's lengthy. But I had to acknowledge my mistakes, have the self-realization of where I need to make changes.

"Sometimes the hardest thing in life is deciding which bridge to cross and which bridge to burn."

Friday, February 4, 2011

Run, baby run!

At the beginning of January my brother, Brian, completed his first marathon! That deserves a big round of applause! He participated in a marathon at Lake Mead in Nevada. It was so fun to see him accomplish something so incredible!

My dad ran out to mile 20 to finish the last six miles while Stanton went into Las Vegas, (he got amazingly rare tickets to an event in the city) and my mom, Jared, and I went to Hoover Dam. It was my very first time visiting and I loved it! I plan to go back again sometime soon!

Brian completed the marathon in just over five hours. He was exhausted but still maintained a great attitude. He hugged everybody and he even managed to pose for my photo shots and participate in an interview setting while Jared had video recording. He had a smile on his face the whole time.

I have wanted to run a marathon since Sophomore year in high school. Possibly earlier! I don't know why I never took action, I just didn't. However, Brian made an impact on my life. I saw hi m make his mind up and it inspired me to do the same. So.... drumroll.... I am officially registered for the Utah Valley Marathon on June 11, 2011!!!

I am really going to run a marathon!! I signed up and registered yesterday afternoon! I am so excited!! Wish me luck! I hope to have as much success as Brian! :)

"Every morning in Africa, a gazelle wakes up. It knows it must outrun the fastest lion or it will be killed. Every morning in Africa, a lion wakes up. It knows it must run faster than the slowest gazelle, or it will starve. It doesn't matter whether you're a lion or gazelle - when the sun comes up, you'd better be running."
~Author Unknown

p.s. Sorry they pictures are backwards... oops! :)














Monday, November 8, 2010

Update.. Again?

So... I write.. then wait months... then write... then wait months. I'm starting to believe this blog was strictly set up for updates only. I guess a picture is worth a thousand words so I will let them do the talking :)

"Making creativity through diversity"


Menu Bandits

Noah and me

My zombie self

Zombie Zumba!

Halloween make-up for work

Visitor at work

"Cause this is Thriller..."

"... Thriller night"



California Adventure!











DSC homecoming football game